Wednesday, June 18, 2008

For my Dad

How do you say goodbye to someone that gave you life? Being a Daddy's girl just came natural. There was never anything that I could not go to Daddy about and know that he would take care of it. And now here I sit only 6 weeks away from bringing my first child into the world, and Daddy is gone. It still has not really hit me that he is no longer here. It will become a reality once all the dust settles and I plan to go see him on a saturday afternoon. Or when I give birth to my own child and he is not there to hold his grandbaby.

Although this is probably the hardest thing that I have ever had to do, I know that it is God's perfect will. We just discussed this yesterday in our Bible study how God has every detail of your life written out before you are ever formed in your mother's womb. He knew before the foundations of the Earth that today, June 18, 2008 would be my Dad's last day on this Earth. Does that make it any easier? No. But can I find comfort in knowing that this is in God's plan for my life? Absolutely! It is not going to be an easy process and I know that I am going to need a shoulder to lean on. But I thank God that He has provided me with a loving husband that will be there for me. And in time a beautiful baby that will renew my spirits. So to my Daddy....I love you and I will forever hold you in my heart!

4 comments:

lyndsay said...

tara, i'm so sorry. my heart breaks for you and your sweet family. please know that i am lifting you up...

TheVanzants said...

Tara, my mom told me yesterday about your dad (the one that works with Jason). I am so sorry. Please let us know if there is anything we can do for you - we're just a phone call away. We're praying for you and your family.

Dana said...

I'm so sorry Tara. You are in my thoughts.

Conner Cutoff said...

tara,

we love you guys!

garrett, lara and jackson